In these daily devotionals writing about myself is hard. I think of myself as a guarded person but that is one of the things I would like to change about myself. I tend to keep things to myself, largely my emotions. I want to be more open, honest and expressive in not just these devotionals but in my everyday life.
I know that when I shut people out, they shut me out too. I wrote a devotional the other day expressing that I would like to have characteristics that God wants me to have.
When you get serious about God, the Devil takes notice. Monday I completely forgot to take my daughter to dance. I did not have one thought about it until about 9 PM then it was too late.
Dependable? Gotta work on that!
She did go to dance. She doesn’t live with me, so neither of us communicated and so I think the devil was at work and didn’t even give her the urge to call me to say, Hey where are you?
I felt so bad I sent a text apologizing and she forgave me. I want to be someone dependable, especially for my daughter.
Am I steadfast?
I have no schedule so I live in the moment. Steadfast is something I need to work on.
Am I merciful?
I am quick to anger and that makes me have to apologize sometimes and I realize that make me at the other person’s mercy. Merciful is something I need to work on.
Am I faithful?
I would like to think that I am. I am worthy of trust, loyal, and devoted. I am proving this to God by writing this daily devotional.
Am I loving?
I have been hurt so I am a little reserved when it comes to being loving. I have to work on it.
Am I genuine?
I am. What you see in my actions and personality are genuine. I am myself.
Am I extraordinary?
I think I will be with God and with God’s direction.
I could say that about all these characteristics. Some of these characteristics come naturally, some are and will always be a work in progress.
23 If the LORD delights in a man's way,
he makes his steps firm;
24 though he stumble, he will not fall,
for the LORD upholds him with his hand.