Over the last week I decided to step off the roller coaster of emotions that I have been on. I had to step out on faith. My heart hurts. An unforseen event happened, my husband and I switched emotions. I am thankful that God's allowed him to feel the same anguish that I have had over the last nine months. I am also thankful that God allowed me to feel the separateness that my husband felt. I can't express my feelings here. They are too private. I am still in prayer for God's will in my life. I try to look at each day. Today I spent the day alone trying to be at complete peace being by myself. I haven't been able to feel that peace because I had been so angry about my situation. Now I feel I can stop looking at the past and wishing I was there. This is really hard for me. I have a future that I can't see and will rely completely on God for what will be best for me.
Today's verse spoke to me first thing this morning,
Philippians 4:7
"God's peace, which is so great we cannot understand it, will keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."
When we are in a situation we feel we will never be able to get out of, and God tells us to get out, He gives us a wonderful gift called peace.
Peace before the storm. Peace beyond logic. Nothing is logical about my situation. But my divorce is going to happen and God is giving me a peace about it.
This evening my bible study reminded me that this life is temporary and I need to keep my focus on the things of God. I am still reading the book of Exodus daily.
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