Tuesday, August 9, 2011
God's will week Twelve
"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while so that we can see life with a clearer view again."
- Alex Tan
In all honesty, this quote made me angry today. I have done so much crying, I should have a clear view by now, but I don’t. This month my brother and I would have a birthday to celebrate. Six months ago, he was gone. In my thoughts, he is not gone. In my heart he is not gone. I’m still sad. I have a Guns & Roses song in my head, “Patience.” The lyrics, “Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you. I'm still alright to smile,” that about sums it up. I miss my brother a lot.
Some days missing him gets me in a funk. Today it got to me a little more, a friend of mine, lost her husband to suicide over the weekend. I know how she might feel, because all the hope and plans for the future are just erased. As a country, a plane went down and 30 Navy Seals lost their lives in a helicopter crash. I pray for those families loss also.
Death makes us pull our loved ones closer. I don’t let my daughter out of my sight until I tell her I love her. I pray about her every day, as well as my other family members. I want to give my daughter 100 plus warnings about how she needs to be safe. I try not to stress her out, and I tell her she is the most important thing to me and I want her to not let anything happen to her. She always tells me she will be safe, and I still hold my breath. I can’t prevent anything bad from happening to her. I trust that God is with her.
Today’s verse “Continue praying, keeping alert, and always thanking God… Pray that I can speak in a way that will make it clear.”
Colossians 4:2, 4
I hope my words travel with her where she goes. I’m sure as God’s children He wants the same for us. Learn this verse today, and others as often as you can, so that His word will travel with you were you go also.
May grace and mercy be with you today, from God the Father.